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My mood hasn’t turned any better. From blue and now is grey. Been thinking a lot of things, but I still can’t figure it out anyway to overcome my problem. Why you must give up something to get something? Why we must lost something in our life no matter what. Why I give myself so much pressure? Why I can’t help myself to think? Why am I so depressed? Why am I exists in this world? How good if I’m now at another place that no one know me. So I can live in my own world. What am I living for? What is my life about? There is a lot of question mark in my mind. Who can help me to solve it? Why I get complicated?

Feeling Blue

Feeling blue and wanted to find someone to chat with. But at this moment, I can’t find anyone to chat with. Now is 4am in the morning, who will be online and accompany me? I’m listening to some sad oldies while I’m feeling down. I know it might make me feel worst but I just can’t help it. Or maybe listen to some sad songs will ease my feel? It’s a very funny thing that I always listener to someone, but I just can’t be the one who talk. I just don’t know how to express myself. Hmm… my English sucks, my way of expressing myself sucks as well. Damn, why I just can’t improve my English? I listen to a lot of people, I listen to what they said, and I will tell them what I feel about it. Sometimes I even give advice. I’ve been listening too much, I need someone to listen to me but I just afraid and I just not used to express myself out. Perhaps human are meant to be like that. God gives you the ability to listen, to be a good listener but in the same time he might took away the ability of you to express yourself. Humans are imperfect, I’m one of them. Maybe I should work myself out in order to overcome my imperfection. But where should I start from? Or just let it be and life will be easier? Diploma is finishing and I wonder how my future will be. I’m not good in study or I’m just lazy? Don’t feel like continue writing anymore, I think I should go to bed now. Lay down and think, think of my future, think of myself, what am I for and what am I going to be.

The End of the Road

Today is the last day of my life in diploma. It’s been 4 years that I stayed in KL to study. These 4 years bring me a lot of memories. I will definitely miss all my classmates. We shared joy and sad in the pass 2 years. We even have our very own “Da Pig Family” that includes me (Wild Boar), Yih Chyi (Pig Queen), Pui Mun (Lil Piggy) and lastly Yuen Theng (Pig Head Biscuit). Envy huh? A guy and 3 leng lui in the family, haha. Today I met them at KFC after I came back from McD with Willy. Afterwards I followed them go back to college and took some photo. Now only I realize something that the girls in my class are actually pretty, haha. Today they all wearing skirts… heh. I went to attend my last tutorial class. Mr. Ng Chan Wah’s tutorial @@ I’m very surprised that he didn’t scold me for din attending his class for such a long time but he do surprised to see me. The whole class I sit there and listening but I can’t understand anything, LOL! We had a chat after the tutorial; he asked me what my future plan is and encourages me. Mr. NG changed a lot compare to the first time I saw him. He told me is fate that we met and he will be sad seeing us graduate or leaving. Yeah, so do I. I’m used to the living style in KL and now I’m going back to JB, I think it will take me some time to get over it. But I definitely will miss all my friends here. After I go back, don’t know when will I get the chance to come back KL and visit them. I hope I can always keep in touch with them. Rainy day and I’m feeling sad because we are going apart and live our life. Each of us will have a different story soon. Don’t know when will we meet again or perhaps never get the chance?

I will post the picture as soon as I learn it how to do so. =)
So now, I think I stop here and maybe continue tonight. Is time for me to rest awhile and flashback some sweet memories with them.

To those who read this, have a nice day ^^

From the left is Theng Theng (Pig Head Biscuit), me (Wild Boar), Chyi Chyi (Pig Queen), and Mun Mun (Lil Piggy) We are "Da Pig Family"

My Day~*

Rainy day, a weather that very nice to sleep. But still can't sleep, not sure why. I'm kinda tired after i went to PIKOM (pc fair) at KLCC today but afta i took a cold water bath and till now i'm still so refreshing =( Listening Jay's songs and folding paper stars just now. Damn i'm too free now, nothing better to do. Still learning how to manage the blog to be a better one. Now i owns a blog, perhaps i can express myself out in the blog rather than keeping all the things in my heart, is that a good idea or not? Sometimes i got things to share but can't find people to share with but only keep inside me. My english is that good, maybe through here i can brush up my english =) My current life now is boring and meaningless. Everyday wake up and just facing my pc 24/7 and waiting for the exam to come. That SUCKS ! Suddenly i hate myself, LOL !!

DaY 2

Very Cold and windy day. Now is 4.24am in the morning and i'm still sitting here writting blog? Today's mood is blue, not sure why and don't feel like to know why. Started to fold paper stars this afternoon, mayb i'm just too free and nothing to do. I'm always think about a question - Why sometimes life is just so complicated? I started to write strange things, maybe simply because i'm just not enough sleep though. I think i better try and go to sleep. Nitez to all my friends.

My Very First Time

Heh~ My very first Blog !! Oh My God !! i created a blog ?? Hmm, i must be too boring or what. Anyway, i hope i can manage this blog well. To all my friends whom i care, wish you all gd luck and all the best in life ^^